My depression shows it's self as anger a lot if the time. I hate when I get past the anger phase to weepy. I don't know how to handle weepy depression. I at least have ways to deal with angry depression.
I have no desire to read. None.
I want to just lie down on the floor and not get up. I have thoughts of slitting my own throat.
I started on medication not too long ago. It helps a lot. I feel happy more often than not. It was a complete revelation to me in fact. 'Are people really this happy all the of the time?' I'm still not sure if people really are that happy or if it is my meds giving me some false sense of euphoria.
I still get depressed. I still hate it. Maybe more now than before. I hate being a bad mom and a bad wife.
I don't dare read back through this post because I think I will delete things. Sorry that this is unedited.